I think that as long as you see yourself as beautiful, the opinion of your peers shouldn't matter. Sadly though, many people including myself, are easily swayed by the opionions of other people. I find it hard to take my own advide, and I drive myself crazy! I always tell my friends all my thoughts and ideas to help them, but I can't take that advice. In a way, I'm my own worst enemy, and it's really unfair. Every great compliment, every "You're beautiful," doesn't satisfy me. I feel like the person saying that to me is obligated to do so.
I have been struggling with my appearence ever since I can remember. Either I'm too fat, too thin, too short, or too ugly. I really just want to believe in myself. People in school have absolutely no idea the hell I went through over the summer in the fight to become an (almost) normal teenager. I relapsed in August. Ana almost got the best of me. One day, I payed a visit to Sharon (my psychologist), I told her I had been down in dangerland, 89 pounds. She admitted me to a Nutrition Clinic, and that's when I knew I had to change.
People still make comments to me. They say how I went insane, started cutting and starving myself, just to beat her insecurites, and they may be right. However, it wasn't just because of my insecurites, it was because I wanted to feel good enough, and now that I weigh 116, people STILL call me disgustingly thin when...hello, I'M NOT. So, the overall message here is think before you say something. Words hurt waay more than you might think.
...one more thing
FOOD FOR THOUGHT:
So when is it ever enough? When will we ever accept ourselves for who we are, stop focusing on what we're not?? I think believeing in yourself is the key to happiness, and total confidence starts with you. God, I wish I could change...(!)
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